Podcast Script
I believe that the world is a very uncompromising place, nobody cares about how about you feel or your perspective. This is very true to me because this is what I was taught, have experienced, and probably will experience again. When I was younger my dad told me that the world wasn’t going to give me anything and that you need to work for as much as you want. I took that very seriously and figured out that people hold me back from what I want to achieve. When I was in 5th and 6th grade I focused a lot on schoolwork instead of things that I liked such as drawing and gaming.. I remember my teacher saying “well done ,” after turning in a series of my projects that I had all gotten all A’s on. She asked me, “How does feel being such a hard worker” she said with a cheery smile on her face. I responded with a sly grin and baggy eyes that had clearly shown discomfort while saying, “Tired mostly and I could go for a break.” After turning in a large amount of projects that I had gotten A’s on I didn’t feel any reward out of it. From the numerous times this happened this led me to my conclusion of making decisions that I wanted to do, That was how I was going to get the most out of life. This is why most of the important decisions in my life only involve me.
Throughout my life I’ve had many experiences where it was very necessary to focus on what I want and be independent with my decisions. When I was growing up, I experienced massive amounts of issues with my personality and ideas. I hated myself and didn’t want anything to do with myself, which I’m sure that every person deals with sometime in their life.I came to the conclusion that I wanted to talk to somebody, a parent or teacher about how I was feeling. But, I decided not to do that and instead analyze myself on a deeper level, which was both hard and pleasing. I still don’t know exactly who I am. I saw that I really didn’t care about other people that much, not to the point where I’m a sociopath but just not as much as I thought I did. This led to me being very independent.
Because this belief makes me such an independent person I can’t really relate it to my family or other people. But by being more independent, I feel like I’m more destined for greatness. I don’t need to worry about others dragging me down. It sounds super ignorant and self-centered but it helps me think of what I want first instead of other people. It’s still interesting that I work so well in groups. This mindset is separating me from my family and culture in a way to where it is bringing me closer to them. When I decided to start being more independent, I started to be a more observational person and look at what made people how they are , which played a key part in understanding myself and what I did.
All in all I really focus on bettering my life by being alone in my decisions. Overall this belief has caused me to explore my feelings, preferences, and ideas more to see my potential.Truth is something to follow and believe that will guide your decisions. So I’ll leave you to think about this question- What truths and beliefs guide your decisions? And how do those decisions affect your feelings, preferences, and ideas?